My spiritual journey truly began when I found myself amidst great yogis, a source of immense inspiration and information. It felt as if God instantly provided me with the tools to follow this path with deep faith. I witnessed their dedication, doing their best, no matter the circumstances, and knew that I too could strive to do what God wanted of me. My quest for independence has always driven me to not depend on name, fame, or anything gained from other human beings. I aspire to go beyond such attachments and live a life dedicated to higher purpose.

The Unexpected Turn: Marriage and Rajyoga

My decision to marry was, I believe, part of God's plan. Initially, I was torn between two paths, but eventually, I found myself in Japan, where my spiritual rebirth truly occurred. Even during my honeymoon year, a spiritual awakening was underway. God's plan was for me to meet Him in Japan.

I encountered Rajyoga through a Japanese girl who invited me to a talk on vegetarianism. That talk was incredibly convincing. When it came to moral issues, there were no "buts" for me. Every reason presented resonated deeply, solidifying my desire to be vegetarian.

A Seven-Day Transformation

After just seven days of the Rajyoga course, my life's direction became crystal clear. I knew this was my path. I told my husband, "This is my life," and expressed my desire to delve deeper into spirituality. No one could stand in the way of that profound urge.

It wasn't easy. While my husband wasn't initially happy about my decision to dedicate my life fully to God, he eventually realized he couldn't stop me. I explained that I could still be a wife, but my spiritual lifestyle and pure life were non-negotiable. I wanted to serve humanity. I had everything – a good husband, a beautiful family, financial resources – but I needed to make my life truly worthwhile by dedicating my time to God.

For three years in Japan, I balanced my marriage with my Rajyoga practice. It was a period of deep learning and self-discovery. I became internally strong, a true yogi within.

Returning to Thailand and Building a Spiritual Family

I felt a strong pull to return to Thailand. God's principle is clear: we must be responsible. I waited patiently until my husband acknowledged my unwavering commitment, ultimately accepting that he couldn't stand between me and God. It was a gift from God, this freedom to remain pure and be His instrument.

My return to Thailand marked the beginning of a new chapter of service. I was blessed with a truly supportive family. My mother, now 97, has been my greatest champion. She became vegetarian and even helped translate the basic Rajyoga course with two cousins.

Daily Life as a Yogi

As a yogi, my daily life involves both self-service and service to my spiritual family. The number of spiritual family members is increasing, especially after COVID. While many are online, the quality of our connection is deepening. I feel fortunate to have them; we gather every Thursday and Saturday, and every morning. This keeps me alert, focused on their qualities and growth, and continuously aware of my own.

Currently, five of us, all retired, live together. It's a beautiful balance of physical service, spiritual practice, and harmonious relationships. We treat everyone equally, and even at 72, I feel energetic and keen to participate in everything, inspiring them in turn. This shared living environment is powerful, like a "pond of female ponders."

The Art of Service and Virtues

I've always emphasized the importance of virtues and have engaged in various forms of service. I recall conducting spiritual activities in different homes, including yours. I remember asking you to embody the "power of love." It was amazing to see how we learned to look beyond outward appearances and conquer inner darkness. These activities provided opportunities for countless families to experience the touch of God and spirituality.

I've always been open to new places and adventures. We've had so much fun, even going to the park. I've always tried to embody a creative, youthful, and childlike energy, encouraging others to dance, sing, and play while practicing yoga. This balance of fun and discipline, what Dadi Janki called "love and law," has been a guiding principle.

I still remember the first question you asked me: "Who does God love the most?" And  I replied, "Me." Today, I understand that God loves everyone equally, but those who give Him the most love receive it in return.

An Icon of Light

It is humbling to be considered an "icon of light" in Thailand. My journey has been one of divine guidance, from my unexpected marriage in Japan to my spiritual awakening and my return to Thailand to serve. The seeds of Rajyoga sown in those early days have blossomed into a vibrant spiritual family. I pray that my sweetness and strength in virtues continue to inspire others. My mother's unwavering support and her love for me as a "good daughter" even amidst my spiritual path is a testament to the power of pure relationships.

BK La
National Coordinator Brahma Kumaris Thailand