For a significant part of my life, I felt like an actor playing a role on a stage, going through the motions but disconnected from the true essence of my being. I had built a life that, from the outside, appeared successful and fulfilling. I had pursued higher education, earning a degree in administration. My career path led me to a position within a government institution, even working with the President of the Republic. I was married and blessed with a child. There was financial stability, a family, and the social status that many aspire to achieve.

However, beneath this veneer of success, a profound sense of abandonment gnawed at my soul. It was a feeling that defied logic, as I had a loving mother and a good family upbringing. This wasn't a result of trauma or a difficult childhood. Yet, this deep-seated feeling persisted, casting a shadow over my existence. I lacked a true sense of purpose; something vital was missing.

In my search for solace, I made some poor choices. I turned to drinking liquor, hoping to numb the pain of my inner emptiness. Of course, this was only a temporary and ultimately harmful solution. Those close to me noticed the change.

It was at this crossroads that fate intervened. I received an invitation from friends to attend a conference featuring Sister Nirmala of the Brahma Kumaris. I recall very little of the conference, but I do remember a powerful feeling, an inexplicable sense of joy and connection that resonated deep within me. There was an offer to attend a course on meditation following the conference. When I learned that the course was free, I was surprised. Despite my initial skepticism, that positive feeling I experienced at the conference motivated me to sign up.

Brother Ken was the teacher of this course, and his words sparked something within me. He spoke of the cyclical nature of time and the concept of spiritual elevation, suggesting that I was at a significant turning point in my life. I realized I was searching for a different way to live.

The meditation course brought about a transformation. The desire to go out, to drink, to party – all of that simply vanished. It wasn't something I consciously decided; it was an organic shift in my being. My wife was pleasantly surprised by the changes in my behavior. I was more disciplined, I came home earlier, and my priorities had shifted.

Witnessing my transformation, my wife also felt drawn to explore this path. Our relationship began to heal and deepen. We became more affectionate, more harmonious, and there was a renewed sense of love and understanding between us.

Before this, anger was a frequent companion, directed both inward and outward. My wife and I both struggled with this, along with feelings of sadness and the pervasive sense of abandonment that haunted me. But as I continued with the meditation and embraced the teachings, I experienced a growing sense of peace and harmony. Life began to feel meaningful again.

The positive changes extended beyond my personal life. My colleagues at the office observed a transformation in me. They noticed I was happier, more courageous, and radiated a sense of inner light. Some even jokingly accused me of being "brainwashed". I countered that if my brain was being "washed," it was because it was "dirty" and needed cleansing.

This experience underscored the importance of holistic well-being. I came to understand that true health encompasses four pillars: physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. I began to share this understanding with others through workshops and seminars, guiding them towards a more balanced and fulfilling life.

Before encountering the Brahma Kumaris, my connection to spirituality was tenuous at best. Raised in a predominantly Christian environment, I was not a devout follower. In fact, I harbored doubts about the existence of God.

However, the teachings and practices of Raj Yoga meditation opened my heart and mind to a new understanding of the divine. I developed a personal relationship with God, viewing Him as my Father, and this connection filled the void of abandonment I had carried for so long. This newfound faith did not conflict with my Christian background; instead, it deepened my understanding and appreciation for all spiritual paths.

This journey has been one of profound self-discovery and transformation. It has led me from a place of emptiness and disconnection to a life filled with purpose, joy, and deep connection – with myself, my family, and the divine. And for that, I am eternally grateful.

BK Manuel 
Vice Chairperson, Brahma Kumaris Colombia.